It is interesting to me how God will provide encouragement just when you need it. I feel very strongly that I am called to do ministry through music but lately I have been feeling completely incompetent, especially compared to what other people are doing around me every day. It is an amazing experience to be surrounded with such talent and great musicianship every day but occasionally it can be discouraging - if you let it.
Usually, it does not bother me at all and I just push toward my personal goals, but lately I feel that I have been constantly discouraged about my abilities. I know that this discouragement (and letting it affect me) is not of God, but sometimes I just can't help it. However, every time this has happened lately, whether it is because of my own doubting or something happens that is discouraging... something or someone comes up with encouragement for me.
It is amazing the people that God puts in our lives to be different roles... and some people are several roles. Although feeling unworthy, people have surrounded me with silent hugs, encouragement and reminders to keep on keeping on... I am NOT worthy, or competent, but God's power is made perfect through my weakness and when I CANNOT do it - i just need to remember that there is a reason for that - I CANNOT do it so that GOD CAN do it through me... All glory and honor to him - Lord keep me humble! :)
